While S and I have been dealing with the whole work situation, we've done our best to keep everything normal for the kids. We didn't quit any activities or move them from their school. Basically everything has been the same except for no job (until last Thursday).
A few weeks ago we had our first open house. We were running around like mad trying to get the house perfect for those who would be looking at it. We asked the girls to help by sweeping out their playhouse in the back yard. Well, K lost it. She is usually my most compliant child and she just lost it, throwing a full-on tantrum at 6 years old. This isn't normal. I sent her to her room for a time out to let her calm down. When I checked on her, she said she didn't want to leave her house or move or go to a new school or leave her friends. S and I prayed with her, for peace and for comfort. There is nothing like seeing your child in pain. Her fears were from the heart.
Last night, as I'm tucking the girls into bed, L lost it. She said the exact same things K had said just a few weeks earlier. This made me cry and the three of us girls sat on L's bed and prayed, again, for peace and comfort. We prayed that we'd make new friends and find a good school. K's prayer was so sweet for her sister and that made me even more teary.
While this situation has been difficult for S and I, we tend to forget that it's not easy for the kids either. We've not changed much in our way of life but they know that they are going to be leaving all they've ever known.
The truth is that I don't want to leave. I've made some wonderful, life-long friends here and hate to leave them behind. It's true that this is a new adventure, I'll get a new house, new church, new friends, be the new girl in town. And part of me wonders why God chose right now to move us away from everything. I didn't want to move to this town 6 years ago and now I don't want to leave.
I pray daily for our situation, especially for my children, that they will handle this with the grace that God provides. He is our ultimate comfort and anchor.
3 comments:
well thanks for the good cry!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't want you to leave either! i am SO THANKFUL that hubby has a job now- that is a huge huge answer to prayer. but we love your family and love having you here. thankfully, God knows best, as you have told yourself a million times over the last couple of months, and we just have to rest in that. i've been praying for you & S, but i will especially pray for the girls now. hope to see you soon. i've missed you!
Made me cry, too! And I'm going to miss your friends there, too!
I'm praying for the girls, as you well know...sweet post, from the heart.
Nana
Oh, tears in my eyes too. This post is a gentle reminder to me to consider how my daily actions and decisions affect my children.
We're praying for you guys and I have faith that He will pave your way.
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